breaking point.....

So I'm going to take some time to thank my friends. They are honestly the best people i could possibly be blessed with. I lost someone rather close to me this weekend yet i had a great weekend. made a lot of new friends too who have been amazing. Anyway, just pointing out Gods persistent grace.

I got into a conversation with my friend Lee the other night. He's really an inspiration because he's had cancer three times and still loves life. Anyway he was telling me about a friend of his who committed suicide and how he felt it was the only way out. We talked about how hard that was for him and stuff. I've always wondered how i would handle that situation, if I could truly be an encouragement to my friends. Anyway i wrote a song from that kids perspective today. so here it is currently untitled.

I am like a ship
on its maiden voyage
who thought she couldn't sink
but now i'm on the ocean floor
I am like a plane
who just got off the ground
but to my dismay
I'm falling down in a firey spiral

So many questions
So few decisions
could put a kid
in an early grave
I feel alive
but I feel alone
and I can't imagine
myself any better

You offer your drugs
but I push away
I know there's no supplement for this
It's always a lie
but I'm paralyzed
by the weight of my pain

So many questions
So few decisions
could put a kid
in an early grave
I feel alive
but I feel alone
and I can't imagine
myself any better

I took a leap
out of a third story window
and as my body crumbled
I thought of you
And what God will say
to me