Friday, August 29, 2008

as of yet untitled............

cause I've been sleeping with a Ghost
someone I should have known
and I can't see the light
or hear her voice over mine

Thursday, August 28, 2008

a quick observation.........

couples do not under any circumstance smile at each other and rub each others arms while there is a dude within 10 feet of you...............IN THE LIBRARY TRYING TO GET WORK DONE!

That is just flat out annoying. Singleness is a blessing in disguise.

Monday, August 25, 2008

America will break your heart............

So I have these spells in my American lifestyle that I can't help but become very disenchanted with what I see, feel, or find myself focusing on. Honestly i get sick in my stomach about that crap. I know I am blessed and cursed at the same time here in America. Blessed in the sense that i have so many blessings as far as friends and family. Not to mention an amazing church body to worship with. I am cursed because i am spoiled with possessions when many need food, selfishness blinds me to the problems in the rest of the world. It's very hard to live with this burden on my back, this constant feeling that i need to be somewhere else. That i'm displaced away from the home I know. It's hard to accept that the place where God wants me is to finish my education here at Cedarville and afterward I get to be unleashed into the world to do my part. Prayer is the biggest thing I need more than anything. I miss Romania like crazy, I want to go back tomorrow but unfotunetly thats not really an option. I would love to just get away to satisfy these burdens but I simply can't at this point again pray for me.

any way this is a toast to America a place that will surely break your heart.
Peace and Love.
Go do something to help someone.

Friday, August 22, 2008

by all accounts.........

I find there are moments in my life that I am in awe at the things that God does in my life. Lately those moments seem to come non stop its true what they say that with discipline comes blessings. It's proven to me again and again lately but yeah so i was reading in Genisis tonight that Abram could not have children with his wife so God shows him the stars and says number them and that's how many children you'll have. There are moments in the Bible that literally take my breath away, that was one of them for me because its just such a beautiful image, God, the stars, and his promise.

Anyway just thought I'd share.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

I am undone...............................

Sometimes I have trouble finding myself in this crowded place called earth. I have trouble understanding why I do some of the things I do. I lose my faith in God's plan. I lose faith in my purpose for him. I listen to Satan and his lies. I give in would i should stand tall. I stay when I should run. Yet, somehow God sustains me. He is my life support. My oxygen, my bread, my wine. I do not understand Him but He understands me. He loves me when I spit in His face. He holds me when I am alone. He promises greater things than I can see for myself. He shows me that there is hope in all we do. He gives me strength to face another day. He is LOVE. He is FATHER. He is a shadow behind me. Watching, guiding, blessing.

I deserve nothing. I have earned nothing. He still gives. Even when I give nothing.

My God, I am not but You are.......................