Monday, January 26, 2009

The house of God forever............

Little bit of stuff. I'm a piece of crap and I'm still loved. I wear a mask but He sees right through me. I let anxiety dominate my life and He holds me together.

I honestly don't understand this redemption story. I don't get how I play some pivotal role in this narrative. I don't understand why i think the way I do. Why I see people the way I do. Why I live where I do. Why I have the loved ones I do. Why I'm in this scholastic atmosphere I feel has no connection with me and I'm somehow succeeding.

I feel like fighting. I feel like crying. I feel like praising. I feel like cursing. I feel like loving. I feel like lying. I feel like staying. I feel like leaving. I feel like living. I feel like dying.

I have so many questions in my life and yet they all feel so small when compared to the knowledge that I'll live in the house of God, forever.

Friday, January 16, 2009

20 years..........

My teenage years have officially come to and end and now what I see as adulthood begins. Tonight I felt the need to say that it has been a incredible blessing to live this wonderful life so far and I'm excited for the next twenty years. I want to live a life of true happiness and not try to just accumulate stuff. Anyway love you all.

Peace be with you.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

feel like new............

Everything feels so fresh like life is dancing around me. I want ti to last, I want to keep moving till they put a lid on me. I love life and I love being with the people I love.

This will be a good semester! I just need to get organized!

Keep moving. Never stop.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

a good life.........

New Year never fails to impress upon me the idea of change and hope. I know years have passed but We can all still change for the better and grow together. I spent the night among drunk high school friends, friends that most in my faith would avoid at this time of year but I needed to be there because I believe they need to see redemption they need to see love from their friends. Though I smell of alcohol and cigarettes I know my friends had a good safe time tonight. And that rings in a good new year in my book. Its a good year in this good life.

Love you all.

Welcome 2009 may you show us who we are and who we need to be.