a long one....

this could be a very long blog.

First i was reading today that the biggest lie that we believe in this world is that life is about us. How true how selfish for us to think that people, God should cater to our own needs. I think this is one of those things we shrug off as something we have heard a million times. I can't wrap myself completely around how selfish i am, why i do this is hard for me to understand. I know what i want to do it's just completely opposite of what i need to do. I guess we cant fully understand why we are like this until we understand what our lives could have been like before the fall. Sometimes i wish i could go back and tell Adam and eve not to take that stupid fruit. It's like everything we do can not be right, but at least we give our best shots and God loves us for that.

the second thing i was reflecting on is the idea of love or maybe lack there of found in our churches today as well as christian culture in general. Donald Miller says we equate love to money. We find someone priceless, we invest in them, we treasure there friendship. Its really like saying well i love you as long as you love me back and if you don't I'm going to drop you like a piece of crap and never look your way again. This isn't love this is about what we can get out of the people we surround ourselves. I'm guilty, when i look at when i truly help people out without expecting something in return, i realize its rare, like they should have a national celebration every time i do rare. I don't want that life. The church is really were we should find love but its not unconditional love. It's very much conditional. As long as you vote republican, don't drink, don't smoke, and don't like gays, we love you but if you actually love people, oh my that is a sin. There's no sin in loving people the bible says to love your enemies. Enemies being people who don't match up to your ideals that you disagree with. If we truly love them we won't have to change them they'll see in your life something they want, and they'll dig deep into those questions they struggle with and you can be there to show them were the answers come from. I don't think we need to go on with our lives expecting the church to have all the right views on things. They have somehow abandoned a lot of what the church was originally founded on, it's sad but true. The good news is that there are still people that love unconditionally because they love God and they know that Jesus would love the gays, the drunks, the drug addicts, the atheist and even the liberals(as shocking as this may be). I hope i can be that person some day, but for now I'm learning.

I guess that's all I've got to say. told you it would be long. and for the record i think the republican party is just as bad as the democrats.

Peace and love.