20 years..........

My teenage years have officially come to and end and now what I see as adulthood begins. Tonight I felt the need to say that it has been a incredible blessing to live this wonderful life so far and I'm excited for the next twenty years. I want to live a life of true happiness and not try to just accumulate stuff. Anyway love you all.

Peace be with you.

feel like new............

Everything feels so fresh like life is dancing around me. I want ti to last, I want to keep moving till they put a lid on me. I love life and I love being with the people I love.

This will be a good semester! I just need to get organized!

Keep moving. Never stop.

a good life.........

New Year never fails to impress upon me the idea of change and hope. I know years have passed but We can all still change for the better and grow together. I spent the night among drunk high school friends, friends that most in my faith would avoid at this time of year but I needed to be there because I believe they need to see redemption they need to see love from their friends. Though I smell of alcohol and cigarettes I know my friends had a good safe time tonight. And that rings in a good new year in my book. Its a good year in this good life.

Love you all.

Welcome 2009 may you show us who we are and who we need to be.

The Music List of 2008

It's been an excellent year for music as many new artist have made truly amazing albums. House of Heroes and Copeland remain above the pack though as the refuse to put out anything but epic music. Check out all the artist even if i felt they sucked it up.

Top five albums:

1. House of Heroes-The End is Not the End

2. Copeland-You Are My Sunshine

3. Lydia-Illuminate

4. The New Frontiers-Mending

5. Farewell Flight-Sound.Color.Motion.

Really Good Records:

Augustana-Can't Love, Can't Hurt

The Gallery-If You Know What I Mean

Brighten-Early Love EP

The Classic Crime-The Silver Chord

Jonezetta-Cruel To Be Young

The Myriad-With Arrows, With Poise

Capitol Lights-This Is An Outrage!

Disappointing Records:

Anberlin-New Surrender

Underoath-Lost In The Sound of Separation

Emery-While Broken Hearts Prevail EP

Rookie Of The Year-Sweet Attention

Best Live Record:

John Mayer-Where the Light Is

So-So Records:

Lovedrug-The Sucker Punch Show

Playradioplay!-Texas

Dear And The Headlights-Drunk Like Bible Times

Most anticipated for 2009:

As Cities Burn

Fair

Weaver In The Loom

This Providence

Sherwood

John Mayer?

happiness......

I ask myself often if I am truly happy and more often than not the answer is a subtle no. Then upon further reflection I find that this is only because of my consistent uncommitment to the one who loves me more than anyone else. It's hard for many people to understand God to try to flesh out what he wants from us. I think he wants what everyone wants to feel his love returned to Him by us. I think he wants honesty even when were pissed off. I think he wants us to believe not because someone else told us to but because he has clearly moved in each of our lives. He doesn't want us to love him because He is our ticket to heaven but because He gives us fulfillment and a joy that is unmatched. Over these past few days God has showed me that happiness is not running as fast as you can in one direction. Happiness is not sex, a lover, or some single strand of fleeting joy. Happiness is not the rain that washes us clean from the worries we cling too.

Happiness is simply this. Us loving God and Him doing the same.

Why it has taken me so long to realize this I don't know but for the first time in my life I am thinking maybe the most clearly I ever have. Thanks be to God.

I love you all but not for what you do but for what i may be able to do for you.

Much Peace and Love

P.S. Have a very Merry Christmas and may you find happiness as well this holiday.

so far so good............

It's been a good week so far. Makes me happy to be alive. There are always weak moments but I feel like God is kind of keeping me protected right now. I love life, I really do. I love being a person that is able to enjoy it as well. School is freakin crazy right now but I'll make it through. Christmas is almost here again so that's good I need a break at home with no homework for a while. Here's a little bit more writing material.

"Never Let You Frown"

Oh we’ll see the golden coast
Like a anchor to the ocean floor
I’ll hear your voice over mine
And with a rhythm in your step
I’ll take my chances cause with you in tow
What risk am I taking anyway?
Cause you’re alive

Call me crazy, Call me sickly
But you’re driving me insane
Your smile makes me feel so warm
So I’ll never-let you frown

Oh we’ll touch the mountain snow
Like a fresh start for the two of us
I’ll make you a promise I mean to keep
And with your hand placed in mine
I’ll dance with you across a floor
We won’t stop till we can’t move
Cause we’re so alive

Call me crazy, Call me sickly
But you’re driving me insane
Your smile makes me feel so warm
So I’ll never-let you frown

You like medicine is all I take
A pill to love and make
Holding out palms to trace
Eyes glued to your face

"The Taste of You"

Drink up, Drink up
Just drink till you drop
Curses fill the air
Lies caught in the webs
Spilling the truth on
Blood stained floors
You are a whore
And nothing more

And I’ll never lose
The taste of you
No chance, No chance
At all, at all

Throw up, Throw up
Just throw yourself through the window
It’s a steep drop
But you can’t fall any further
Then you have
So don’t you dare stop
Just don’t screw up
Cause your worth at least a dime

And I’ll never lose
The taste of you
No chance, No chance
At all, at all

It must demon
Season
Cause I don’t know who I am
When looking in the glass
Cause I’m so damn mysterious
Or maybe just lost

a lot to think about.........

this weekend has really gave me stuff to ponder on. Kinda strange how I've found it in the weirdest places. God works in very crazy ways and sometimes I think he grabs our attention full on just to show us he can. It's hard saying goodbye. It's tough letting go. It's confusing to try to find your path. Yet it's refreshing to know your learning from it all. Hope is a good thing.

Peace and Love.