I am undone...............................

Sometimes I have trouble finding myself in this crowded place called earth. I have trouble understanding why I do some of the things I do. I lose my faith in God's plan. I lose faith in my purpose for him. I listen to Satan and his lies. I give in would i should stand tall. I stay when I should run. Yet, somehow God sustains me. He is my life support. My oxygen, my bread, my wine. I do not understand Him but He understands me. He loves me when I spit in His face. He holds me when I am alone. He promises greater things than I can see for myself. He shows me that there is hope in all we do. He gives me strength to face another day. He is LOVE. He is FATHER. He is a shadow behind me. Watching, guiding, blessing.

I deserve nothing. I have earned nothing. He still gives. Even when I give nothing.

My God, I am not but You are.......................

why i am a slacker...........

i have been neglecting the old blog. for which i apologize. Things have been quite, just chilling at home through the weeks and enjoying work on the weekends. Work goes to full weeks next week however and then I'll busy all the time. On a side note biology is still not my thing.

Read out of Philippians today. That's a very encouraging book. One part said that whatever is good and excellent then hold onto it. So true.

Love you all.
Peace.

The Weepies......

i just recently discovered this band. They are a relaxing little affair, have lovely melodys, but this song specically speeks volumes into my personal life.

"World Spins Madly On"

Woke up and wished that I was dead

With an aching in my head

I lay motionless in bed

I thought of you and where you'd gone

and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do

Like make the world brand new

And take the time for you

I just got lost and slept right through the dawn

And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by I always say goodbye

I watch the stars from my window sill

The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead

With an aching in my head

I lay motionless in bed

The night is here and the day is gone

And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone

And the world spins madly on.

all creation cries.............

i feel like I've been neglecting the old blog lately. It's not that alot hasn't been going on it's just I've been very busy. I 'm back home now and enjoying my free time i suddenly have way to much of but its been great so far.

I've started reading the irresistible revolution this week and so far its been really great. I don't know why its caused such a fuss, so far all of his theology seems tame but exactly what we as Christians need to hear. having met Shane Claiborne has helped me like the book more to because he was such a servant of the Lord that night i went to hear him speak.

Tonight i drove out to see the stars again. I love getting alone time with God out there to pray, worship, and listen. As i was sitting there tonight i just took in the sounds around me, I read somewhere once that if you listen hard enough that you can hear the rocks cry out that Jesus is Lord. So i listened tonight, I didn't hear rocks crying but I started listening to all the animals and i realized we have no idea what they are saying and then i thought what if all they know how to do is praise God. I mean like that's all they ever do when they speak, i honestly wouldn't be surprised. I read that the fact that birds are alive is a miracle in of itself because every morning somehow they find enough worms to survive. They don't worry about where it will come from they just know God will provide. Quite beautiful to think about.

I start back at work this week. I want to make an impact this year.
Peace, Love, Faith.

heading home..........

my last entry from school for the year. It's going to be nice to be home for a while. I need some serious R & R. Work starts tomorrow though so well see if that actually happens.
Keep loving each other and the Lord, peeps.
Peace.

the goodnight moon.....

its the end of freshman year. I've grown up a lot this year, but i still have a long way to go. It's been hard at times but i wouldn't trade my experience in college for anything. Many thanks to my friends new and old for keeping me going. Most of all thanks be to God for being the source of all strength in my life and for his grace and willingness to put up with my crap. Now on to Romania.

I am broken.......

i don't understand God sometimes, but I do know that He has a purpose.
Life kinda bites right now, pray for me.
Keep the love coming.